Sitting, Watching, Waiting by senfchica, literature
Literature
Sitting, Watching, Waiting
Sitting late at night
Time is ticking by
Watching the flowers before me
Smelling the lilies from my seat
Flowers living in the wrong season
It's not spring, it's fall
My mind begins to drift
Recent memories flood in
A hospital room vision
Filling my mind
The blood slowly
Drip, drip, dripping
Down the tube
Into an arm
A familiar human arm
Once healthy now depleted arm
It's ever telling pasty nails
Sitting here on the floor
Hearing the beep of the machines
Nurses come and go
TV is humming
Lights are dim
A book in my hands
Time ticking by
Questions, answers, statements
Strong overpowering emotions
People crying down th
Battlefield Heart
My heart falls,
As I see all the hate,
All the fighting,
The opposite of create.
And in my wisdom,
And can do nothing,
But continue it on,
To cut on a whim.
I destroy myself,
With chemicals and sadness,
With blades and flames,
Your face I wish to caress.
I wish to stroke your cheek,
To say goodbye,
With all this suffering,
My soul does cry.
These things are killing my dreams,
Of world of pain-free,
They are taking my heart,
My ability to see.
They continue the cycle,
Though my will is strong,
I cannot resist doing,
What I know to be wrong.
Thoughts are my destruction,
My growin
Current Residence: Illinois Favourite style of art: nature and buildings Operating System: Windows Vista MP3 player of choice: iPod Wallpaper of choice: currently a turtle! Personal Quote: When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on!
there is an amazing moon out tonight and it is brighter. it is actually causing my house to cast a shadow but alas my camera is not good enough to take pictures at night so i am not able to capture this amazingness. bugger
i got my camera back finally from the wonderful gateway people! it was exciting. they actually just sent me a brand new one so i got an extra memory card, cords, and battery.
so its official. i am currently without camera for a time period that i don't know. i shipped it off to the gateway people to be fixed since it is still on it's year warrenty. i feel like i lost a part of me. i haven't used it in a while because my time has been limited but knowing that i can't use it if i wanted to really sucks. great joy.